4th Movement

[damagedviolin]

Therapy was hard today. I was really frustrated and starting yelling at my therapist. I know I shouldn't have, but it was one set back after another. Eventually, we both knew there wasn't anything to be done today and he sent me home.

...Some days, it's hard to have hope.

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[atoberex.livejournal.com]

The curve of recovery is not as smooth as it looks on paper. Even though some days it feels as though you are not making progress, be sure to keep the larger graph in mind.

If tennis taught me anything, there is always hope. If not for now, then for the future.

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

Yes, I know that, but some days, I wonder if I'm just being unrealistic. The doctors say I should just use the wheelchair and be done with it.

[atoberex.livejournal.com]

Then you stand up, look them in the eye and tell them that Hyoutei does not quit. Even when we should, even when we fail. You are Hyoutei, Choutarou. If you remember one thing, never forget that.

[ooc: Now I am going to have that song stuck in my head. Oh, well, it's a good song!]

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

I wish I could have your confidence, Atobe-san.

[atoberex.livejournal.com]

Yes, well...if I could give some to you, I would. I think, like the rest of you, your confidence took a pounding when that building fell on you. But, also like your body, it will heal. Eventually. You just have to keep going until it does.

[ooc: The famous, "Fake it until you make it!" Speech one of my sisters gave me once :D It is...surprisingly effective.]

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

Ah...of course...

[atoberex.livejournal.com]

Would you be interested and coming over to my Tokyo residence after the Obon Festival to watch fireworks with a couple old friends?

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

that does sound fun...

[atoberex.livejournal.com]

I'll send a car for you. Don't forget a sweater.

[atashitaki.livejournal.com]

Chou-chan... I think you need a change of scenery!

What are you doing this friday~?

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

Nothing, as usual. I have my psychiatrist in the morning, but that's it.

[atashitaki.livejournal.com]

Want to come with me to a concert? It might be a little more... pop... than you're used to, but it could be a lot of fun~?

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

I...don't think I could handle a concert...

[atashitaki.livejournal.com]

Even if we were watching safely from the wings?

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

The wings...?

[atashitaki.livejournal.com]

Off to the side of the stage? Away from the crowd where we can still see all the action?

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

Well..I've never been to a pop concert...

[ryusakuno.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry, But please don't give up hope! It will get better I'm sure it will!

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

I know I shouldn't complain, it's just hard sometimes.

[ryusakuno.livejournal.com]

You're allowed to complain, don't be silly! I know it must be so hard. But you should never give up. Just... try to do better next time?

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

I suppose I should do better....

[ryusakuno.livejournal.com]

No no! I mean... I... oh nuts... I'm terrible at this, aren't I? I just mean that everyone has off days where everything seems to go wrong and nothing seems good enough! But you shouldn't let those days get you down, because they're only bumps in the road and things will get better!

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

Ah. I see. Thank you.

[ryusakuno.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry...

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

Why...?

[ryusakuno.livejournal.com]

... I'm not really sure..!

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

...Okay, then.

You made me laugh. Thank you.

[ryusakuno.livejournal.com]

At least I made you laugh? I'm happy about that. Smiles make all the difference, I think!

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I feel better now.

[ryusakuno.livejournal.com]

I'm very glad.

[kansai-romantic.livejournal.com]

Some of us are getting together to attend an Obon festival here in Tokyo. Will you come with us? I promise you won't cause problems.

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

Are you sure? I'm terrible in crowds...

[kansai-romantic.livejournal.com]

I'm positive. We'll go somewhere quiet, since none of us really likes large crowds either.

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

Okay.

[kansai-romantic.livejournal.com]

Thank you, my friend. I'm glad you'll be with us.

[jirouvolley.livejournal.com]

Yanno Chou-kun, the part that makes me admire you so much is because you're so hopeful despite all of this awfffuuuuulll stuff happening to you. Don't give up on it because of one bad day! I wanna see you walk properly again. I'll do anything to help you get there. Do you want me ter come over? I'll bring sweets again.

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

It's okay, Jirou-san, but thank you. I think I just need to be alone for a bit.

[jirouvolley.livejournal.com]

...if you say so....

Don't give up, ne?

[damagedviolin.livejournal.com]

I wont give up, Jirou-san.

[jirouvolley.livejournal.com]

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