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Ryou's birthday is coming up soon (2 days!) and I already have his gift all bought and wrapped. I hope he'll like it! He and Munehiro have been so kind to me lately, I know I could never actually pay that back, but hopefully I can at least help him have a nice birthday. I can babysit if you two want to go on a nice date, you know!
As for me...well, I still have days where I'm really down. But I also have days I feel really good. I still think about Rei a lot, but I don't think that is going to stop any time soon. And I've come to terms with that. I just have to be optimistic. And stay near people. I know it seems like I'm taking advantage of my friends by staying with them, but I know my limits...and I know it's just bad for me to be alone. I'm happier now. I really shouldn't have been so hard-headed to begin with.
As for me...well, I still have days where I'm really down. But I also have days I feel really good. I still think about Rei a lot, but I don't think that is going to stop any time soon. And I've come to terms with that. I just have to be optimistic. And stay near people. I know it seems like I'm taking advantage of my friends by staying with them, but I know my limits...and I know it's just bad for me to be alone. I'm happier now. I really shouldn't have been so hard-headed to begin with.
